Today was a better day. The sun actually decided to come out from behind the clouds, but it was still very cold. The weekend forecast shows only highs in the low-mid 50s and lows in the upper 20s. It's hard to believe that just over a week ago I was wearing shorts and t-shirt. However, it was just good to not be raining.
This morning was mostly uneventful, but thanks to a wonderful discovery on my baby board, I only ended up with about 2 hours of sleep. Apparently the iPhone has an app that allows you the chance to listen to your baby's heartbeat. I am 20 weeks into my pregnancy and had yet to hear my baby's heartbeat because I do not wish to use the fetal doppler this time around due to potential risks involved, and I was waiting until the fetoscope would be able to pick it which unfortunately probably wouldn't have been for another 2 months. I decided to go ahead and pay the $1.99 for My Baby's Beat and give it a go. The description said works best between 30-40 weeks, but there were a few good reviews for those closer to my gestation, so I thought it wouldn't hurt to try. Within just a few minutes I was able to hear my baby's heartbeat for the very first time, and it was elating. Albeit it was bitter sweet because it is yet another milestone that my husband missed by mere days =( Now upon telling people about this, some were a bit skeptical. Well, I can tell you for a fact that this is no fake app, there is no random recording. You simply turn your phone onto airplane mode to stop any cellular frequencies, plug in microphone-less earphones, and press the microphone of your phone into your belly to find the heartbeat. Now, as a seasoned pregnant woman, I know fairly well where to look for the heartbeat, and like I said within minutes I was able to hear that beautiful sound. I emailed it to my husband, but I doubt he's anywhere near an internet connection unfortunately, but it will be there waiting for him. I calculated the rate to be about 136-140 bpm, so nice and healthy. I got a few good recordings in and finally went off to bed, only to have to get up about 2 hours later.
Took Hayden to school then came home and lazed around in the bed with Brayden messing around with the app further. I really wanted to get a recording uploaded to facebook, but I'm having issues getting it done so I emailed the company and hopefully they will have an answer. Ah, well, just checked my email and they wrote back that apparently it is an issue with facebook and hopefully it can be resolved. Oh well. I was planning on making it to the farm this morning for the milk, but decided to put it off another day because my midwife suggests going in the morning, and morning had already come and gone. I talked with my co-FRG leader for my husband's company about planning, the dinner for the night, etc. An FRG is a company's Family Readiness Group. We team up with the command and help take care of the families by passing down pertinent and/or fun information, notify about community activities, resources, what's going on with our soldiers, etc. I'd wanted to take a nap so bad, but it was so close to having to go and pick Hayden up that I just couldn't. I got him from school and we came home and went over his spelling words. He has a big test on them tomorrow, so I want to make sure he's prepared. It's so great to see him doing his best and doing so well. We still have to work on motivation and good study habits, but he'll get there. By the time we finished up with that I had to start getting ready to go. Tonight's dinner's main point was to say farewell to our batallion commander, and let me just say he is the most fabulous BC on the planet. He is truly respected by his soldiers and family members that know him. He is always there mentoring, guiding, and just having fun doing his job. He's really helped to bring this batallion together, and he will truly be missed.
I took the kids to a good friend's house and headed out. This place was in the middle of nowhere and GPS literally drove me and a few other people into someone's backyard. It was crazy. Luckily we eventually made it. It was nice to get out and spend time with other adults. In my life, it's not something I get to do often. My favorite part is that I also got to dress up =). I will have to upload a picture tomorrow. It was nice to see all the companies come together and present their hilarious yet meaningful departing gifts to the BC. It's times like this where the family atmosphere comes out in this batallion, something we unfortunately haven't felt much since coming here. Our last unit had such a wonderful atmosphere, and we've really missed it, but tonight was awesome. Not to mention the great German buffet ;P. Well, the night closed out, I picked up the kids who were already asleep, got home and put them upstairs in my bed (where I can hear my 2 year old playing while waiting for me), and sat down to do this. I did not miss a call from my husband today, so it sounds like he's in transit. I don't know when I'll hear from him again, but I hope it's soon because I'd really love to share the great news with him. This night was good, and I hope I can top it off with same fabulous sleep.
Goodnight.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Day Three
Ugliest day yet. It was cold and rainy all day today. The only upside of all the rain is that Hayden's soccer game was cancelled today. Just to clarify, I am the coach. Normally, I am happy coaching, but this pregnancy has me super tired and sometimes irritable, so it's not the most fun thing dealing with 10- 6 and 7 year olds at the moment and also keep an eye on my rambunctious 2 year old lol. We started coaching when we first got here last year. Well, the team already had a coach, but his schedule had him miss quite a bit so my husband and I stepped in to help out. After that, we went on to coach our son's team each season. It is the Army youth sports program and 100% volunteer, and unfortunately they have to end up begging for coaches to sign up even after the start of the season just so the kids can play, so we thought we'd do our part. My husband signs up for head coach, but due to his schedule he's not always able to be there, so I am the assistant/back-up coach. This season, though, I've pretty much been head coach as my husband's schedule has had him here less than half the time, and now he's gone so it's just me anyways. I already told the guy in charge that I will not be doing this anymore. Next season I will be all big and pregnant, by myself, and I've got both kids signed up for sports. I just want to sit, watch, and enjoy for once.
Well, to start off, I again was not ready to get up this morning, but it was Hayden's picture day at school so I knew I had to make sure he was ready. Got him looking handsome and off to school and picked up the flu vaccine waiver. Glad it was as easy as last year. I was honestly prepared to ask for the withdrawal paperwork if they said I couldn't have it! Got home, ate breakfast with Brayden, and checked to see if I won the eBay auction for Hypnobabies that I bid for last minute before going to bed last night. Didn't win, but hoping to get it somehow without paying full price! I found out yesterday my husband should start getting all the extra deployment pay soon, so hopefully that will help fund the few things I'm wanting. We weren't sure if he was going to get the extra pay as this isn't a normal deployment, so that was really good news.
As far as the things I'd like to get this time around, I really really want the hypnobabies home study course. I was all set to do it in person in my last pregnancy, but we got hit with an unexpected financial blow that no longer allowed it =/ I'd also like to get a new baby carrier which could be spendy. I also may or may not want to invest in a birth pool. I'm not 100% sure because I'm not 100% sold on a waterbirth for myself. I do have a big bathtub though, so wouldn't be opposed to just using that.
Just before noon, my fatigue had completely taken over and I decided it was a good idea to go ahead and take a nap with Brayden until it was time to go get Hayden about 2 hours later. It was really nice, and I could've slept much longer honestly. We begrudgingly got up and headed out in the rain to get Hayden. Afterwards, I head into town to finally hit the Apotheke and to the grocery store. I've been wanting since the beginning of pregnancy to get some red raspberry leaf tea to drink, but have just put it off and off. It's just something about the fact that I have to go into a German pharmacy to get it, and I get nervous when I don't know what to say or what they're saying. Of course the woman was absolutely wonderfully kind, and even though she spoke little English she was great help. I knew how to pronounce the name of the tea in German, which was the most important part. The best part was that I got quite a bit of it for only 1 euro! I was expecting to pay much more. Well, from there on I went to the German grocery in search of some good glass bottles. I am planning on going to a local farmer for some raw milk and we have to bring our own bottles and pay per liter. Did I ever hit the jackpot? I found these 1 liter glass juice bottles with a wide mouth. They are completely perfect. Most drink stores have crates you can put your bottles in to buy in bulk and make for easy carry, so I took a crate of 6. I also scored a nice big pumpkin from there for only 4 euro (about $5.51). Apparently the Germans don't know us Americans are used to being way overcharged for pumpkins in the states, so it's a steal here!
We got home, relaxed, went over Hayden's spelling words, did a little reading about the baby, and surfed the net a bit. We decided to go out for dinner since it's normally what we do after soccer anyways, and I didn't feel like going to the grocery store for dinner. Afterwards, we got back and worked a little more on Hayden's studying before he decided to go to bed. Brayden soon followed, so I took the opportunity to check my baby board and facebook. My husband called me as I was doing laundry. Our laundry room is downstairs in the basement, so as soon as I heard the phone ringing I booked it up the stairs! We talked about all the things he's had to buy since he's been out there as he seems to have forgotten quite a bit. As I told him, that is exactly why I am a list person when I am packing. Before I can even pack the first sock I have to write my entire packing list, and I can only pack a few things at a time because I have to mark off my list as I go. OCD, I know, but I tend not to forget anything that way. I typically pack for my husband when we travel, so maybe I need to stop doing that so he can get more practice in? Oh, who am I kidding, if I didn't pack for him anything he puts together could probably fit in a kids lunch box lol. We talked for about 15 minutes and then he had to go so the line could keep moving. I finished up the laundry and hopped back on the computer. I'm still so unsure of whether I'll be trying for a space a flight back to the states to visit my family next month, but it'd be really nice. Everyday I look for more and more information to try to make my choice a little easier. The only drawbacks are the uncertainties. Will I get out on my first try, or will me and 2 kids be stuck in an airport for a few days? Will I be able to catch a flight from my first destination to an airfield closer to home, or will I have to worry about being picked up or getting a rental? Will I have any issues going back? It's just so much.
Well, off to put the laundry in the dryer, and then falling over into bed.
Goodnight.
Well, to start off, I again was not ready to get up this morning, but it was Hayden's picture day at school so I knew I had to make sure he was ready. Got him looking handsome and off to school and picked up the flu vaccine waiver. Glad it was as easy as last year. I was honestly prepared to ask for the withdrawal paperwork if they said I couldn't have it! Got home, ate breakfast with Brayden, and checked to see if I won the eBay auction for Hypnobabies that I bid for last minute before going to bed last night. Didn't win, but hoping to get it somehow without paying full price! I found out yesterday my husband should start getting all the extra deployment pay soon, so hopefully that will help fund the few things I'm wanting. We weren't sure if he was going to get the extra pay as this isn't a normal deployment, so that was really good news.
As far as the things I'd like to get this time around, I really really want the hypnobabies home study course. I was all set to do it in person in my last pregnancy, but we got hit with an unexpected financial blow that no longer allowed it =/ I'd also like to get a new baby carrier which could be spendy. I also may or may not want to invest in a birth pool. I'm not 100% sure because I'm not 100% sold on a waterbirth for myself. I do have a big bathtub though, so wouldn't be opposed to just using that.
Just before noon, my fatigue had completely taken over and I decided it was a good idea to go ahead and take a nap with Brayden until it was time to go get Hayden about 2 hours later. It was really nice, and I could've slept much longer honestly. We begrudgingly got up and headed out in the rain to get Hayden. Afterwards, I head into town to finally hit the Apotheke and to the grocery store. I've been wanting since the beginning of pregnancy to get some red raspberry leaf tea to drink, but have just put it off and off. It's just something about the fact that I have to go into a German pharmacy to get it, and I get nervous when I don't know what to say or what they're saying. Of course the woman was absolutely wonderfully kind, and even though she spoke little English she was great help. I knew how to pronounce the name of the tea in German, which was the most important part. The best part was that I got quite a bit of it for only 1 euro! I was expecting to pay much more. Well, from there on I went to the German grocery in search of some good glass bottles. I am planning on going to a local farmer for some raw milk and we have to bring our own bottles and pay per liter. Did I ever hit the jackpot? I found these 1 liter glass juice bottles with a wide mouth. They are completely perfect. Most drink stores have crates you can put your bottles in to buy in bulk and make for easy carry, so I took a crate of 6. I also scored a nice big pumpkin from there for only 4 euro (about $5.51). Apparently the Germans don't know us Americans are used to being way overcharged for pumpkins in the states, so it's a steal here!
We got home, relaxed, went over Hayden's spelling words, did a little reading about the baby, and surfed the net a bit. We decided to go out for dinner since it's normally what we do after soccer anyways, and I didn't feel like going to the grocery store for dinner. Afterwards, we got back and worked a little more on Hayden's studying before he decided to go to bed. Brayden soon followed, so I took the opportunity to check my baby board and facebook. My husband called me as I was doing laundry. Our laundry room is downstairs in the basement, so as soon as I heard the phone ringing I booked it up the stairs! We talked about all the things he's had to buy since he's been out there as he seems to have forgotten quite a bit. As I told him, that is exactly why I am a list person when I am packing. Before I can even pack the first sock I have to write my entire packing list, and I can only pack a few things at a time because I have to mark off my list as I go. OCD, I know, but I tend not to forget anything that way. I typically pack for my husband when we travel, so maybe I need to stop doing that so he can get more practice in? Oh, who am I kidding, if I didn't pack for him anything he puts together could probably fit in a kids lunch box lol. We talked for about 15 minutes and then he had to go so the line could keep moving. I finished up the laundry and hopped back on the computer. I'm still so unsure of whether I'll be trying for a space a flight back to the states to visit my family next month, but it'd be really nice. Everyday I look for more and more information to try to make my choice a little easier. The only drawbacks are the uncertainties. Will I get out on my first try, or will me and 2 kids be stuck in an airport for a few days? Will I be able to catch a flight from my first destination to an airfield closer to home, or will I have to worry about being picked up or getting a rental? Will I have any issues going back? It's just so much.
Well, off to put the laundry in the dryer, and then falling over into bed.
Goodnight.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Day Two
Mostly smiles between last night and now =)
20 weeks pregnant today.
Last night, I received a text from my husband telling me he was safely there and that he loves us. I was too cheap to text him back lol (we live in Germany and have German phone plans, he is in another country so it will be costing us). I cried a few tears of joy because I really wasn't expecting to hear from him so soon. Went to bed with the boys and slept quite well.
This morning was the first morning back to school after a lonnng (albeit much-needed) 4-day weekend. Gotta love the Army life for that. We get at least one 4-day weekend per month for the soldiers (most soldiers, those on high-priority like the military police, however, don't reap that benefit.) It's worth celebrating when the school schedule falls in line with that as well, and it really could not have come at a better time with him leaving and all. So anyways, I wasn't looking forward to getting up after being able to sleep in, but I got up and took a nice refreshing shower. I made sure to shave my legs and promised myself that would be a regular thing to kind of keep things regular. Just because my husband is gone does not mean I don't have to take care of such things. Brushed my teeth, moisturized, lotioned up the belly, got ready and continued on the normal morning routine of preparing my son for school. I find that doing all that for myself also helps me to feel confident and good about myself rather than just falling into a state of drab. Anything I can do to help keep my head up, I will do.
It was rainy again today, really not so cold, but altogether miserable. Did I mention I'm originally from Virginia Beach, VA and all this coldness and such short of a summer is really not my thing? I took Hayden to school, came back home and tidied up the house. It really needed it after all my "self-entitled laziness" all this weekend lol. I watched a movie and played with Brayden, and then my cell phone rang.
There is only one person with that particular ringer- my husband! I couldn't believe he was calling me because of the charges (we don't know how much it is, but I'm going to hold my breath when I open our bills at the end of the month lol.) I answered anyways of course and was as giddy as I used to be in high school when he'd call me =) We talked about our days, how we were, how things were there, what to expect, and what we were going to do about this whole calling situation. There is a cell phone provider where he is, so we may end up going that route. He will not be provided with the best calling capabilities. This is nothing like his 1st tour to Iraq where he had internet and could call me on skype at any time. It was really soooo nice getting to talk to him. You really don't know what you have until it's gone, and I miss him so much already. Unfortunately, I had forgotten to charge my phone so about 17 minutes into the call I lost him, but it still was a nice 17 minutes.
From there on I rested with Brayden (my 2 year old) as I was still super tired from the earlier schedule until I had to pick up Hayden (my 6 year old) from school. From then on we went to our phone place to see if I could do anything from here to change my husband's plan to allow him to call, but can't do that unfortunately. Then, went to the PX to get the boys new snow boots for this year but could only find Hayden's size for now, and also replaced his jacket since his one from last year ripped. They had really good deals, though, so it wasn't bad. We then went on to the commissary for groceries and I had coupons in hand. I am going to crack down on using coupons from now on. I'm glad I did because I had a 21% savings on my groceries (I'm not Extreme Couponing status, yet, but one day...one day. Although here it is near impossible to do because all we have in the commissary so no double-couponing, no in-store "MVP" card, etc.) Came home, did the dishes, cooked dinner, ate, then pulled out my son's homework. Something very interesting was in that stack of papers- a permission form for this year's flu vaccine drive at his school later this month. I was a bit blindsided because I had asked someone in the main office if they would be doing that again this year and she said no, but apparently something changed or she was just misinformed. To put it straight, I do not vaccinate my kids (Hayden is fully vaccinated at the moment, but will no longer receive any shots, and Brayden has never received a shot), and the flu vaccine is definitely a no-no for me. Just as I did last year, I wrote my DO NOT CONSENTs all over the form, will be picking up his waiver tomorrow, and will not be sending him to school those 2 days. I do not want him bringing home all the shedding that's going to be going on during those 2 days because of how sick it could make me and endanger the baby, and I don't want to take the risk of having them inject him anyways, even with my non-consent.
To my surprise, about halfway into writing this, I got a call on the house phone. "Who on earth would be calling me this late?" I thought to myself. It was a strange and short number on the caller ID. I answered, and it was my husband again! This time, he was calling through the government phonelines, so no charges for us! It was so nice to hear from him again. We talked about our days and how I started this blog. He wished me a happy 20 weeks as he does every Tuesday when I reach a new week (which I love btw, even if he does have to look at an app on his phone to remind himself of my progress lol). We talked about Hayden's vaccine form and he fully supports my decision which is awesome. Chit chatted a bit more, but he had to give up the phone for everyone else to make their calls. I hope we figure something out, though. It would be nice to have open communication with him, but it won't be the end of the world if it's old-school Army while he's gone.
Anyways, it is way past my bedtime. I will have to close this here, and come back tomorrow.
Goodnight.
20 weeks pregnant today.
Last night, I received a text from my husband telling me he was safely there and that he loves us. I was too cheap to text him back lol (we live in Germany and have German phone plans, he is in another country so it will be costing us). I cried a few tears of joy because I really wasn't expecting to hear from him so soon. Went to bed with the boys and slept quite well.
This morning was the first morning back to school after a lonnng (albeit much-needed) 4-day weekend. Gotta love the Army life for that. We get at least one 4-day weekend per month for the soldiers (most soldiers, those on high-priority like the military police, however, don't reap that benefit.) It's worth celebrating when the school schedule falls in line with that as well, and it really could not have come at a better time with him leaving and all. So anyways, I wasn't looking forward to getting up after being able to sleep in, but I got up and took a nice refreshing shower. I made sure to shave my legs and promised myself that would be a regular thing to kind of keep things regular. Just because my husband is gone does not mean I don't have to take care of such things. Brushed my teeth, moisturized, lotioned up the belly, got ready and continued on the normal morning routine of preparing my son for school. I find that doing all that for myself also helps me to feel confident and good about myself rather than just falling into a state of drab. Anything I can do to help keep my head up, I will do.
It was rainy again today, really not so cold, but altogether miserable. Did I mention I'm originally from Virginia Beach, VA and all this coldness and such short of a summer is really not my thing? I took Hayden to school, came back home and tidied up the house. It really needed it after all my "self-entitled laziness" all this weekend lol. I watched a movie and played with Brayden, and then my cell phone rang.
There is only one person with that particular ringer- my husband! I couldn't believe he was calling me because of the charges (we don't know how much it is, but I'm going to hold my breath when I open our bills at the end of the month lol.) I answered anyways of course and was as giddy as I used to be in high school when he'd call me =) We talked about our days, how we were, how things were there, what to expect, and what we were going to do about this whole calling situation. There is a cell phone provider where he is, so we may end up going that route. He will not be provided with the best calling capabilities. This is nothing like his 1st tour to Iraq where he had internet and could call me on skype at any time. It was really soooo nice getting to talk to him. You really don't know what you have until it's gone, and I miss him so much already. Unfortunately, I had forgotten to charge my phone so about 17 minutes into the call I lost him, but it still was a nice 17 minutes.
From there on I rested with Brayden (my 2 year old) as I was still super tired from the earlier schedule until I had to pick up Hayden (my 6 year old) from school. From then on we went to our phone place to see if I could do anything from here to change my husband's plan to allow him to call, but can't do that unfortunately. Then, went to the PX to get the boys new snow boots for this year but could only find Hayden's size for now, and also replaced his jacket since his one from last year ripped. They had really good deals, though, so it wasn't bad. We then went on to the commissary for groceries and I had coupons in hand. I am going to crack down on using coupons from now on. I'm glad I did because I had a 21% savings on my groceries (I'm not Extreme Couponing status, yet, but one day...one day. Although here it is near impossible to do because all we have in the commissary so no double-couponing, no in-store "MVP" card, etc.) Came home, did the dishes, cooked dinner, ate, then pulled out my son's homework. Something very interesting was in that stack of papers- a permission form for this year's flu vaccine drive at his school later this month. I was a bit blindsided because I had asked someone in the main office if they would be doing that again this year and she said no, but apparently something changed or she was just misinformed. To put it straight, I do not vaccinate my kids (Hayden is fully vaccinated at the moment, but will no longer receive any shots, and Brayden has never received a shot), and the flu vaccine is definitely a no-no for me. Just as I did last year, I wrote my DO NOT CONSENTs all over the form, will be picking up his waiver tomorrow, and will not be sending him to school those 2 days. I do not want him bringing home all the shedding that's going to be going on during those 2 days because of how sick it could make me and endanger the baby, and I don't want to take the risk of having them inject him anyways, even with my non-consent.
To my surprise, about halfway into writing this, I got a call on the house phone. "Who on earth would be calling me this late?" I thought to myself. It was a strange and short number on the caller ID. I answered, and it was my husband again! This time, he was calling through the government phonelines, so no charges for us! It was so nice to hear from him again. We talked about our days and how I started this blog. He wished me a happy 20 weeks as he does every Tuesday when I reach a new week (which I love btw, even if he does have to look at an app on his phone to remind himself of my progress lol). We talked about Hayden's vaccine form and he fully supports my decision which is awesome. Chit chatted a bit more, but he had to give up the phone for everyone else to make their calls. I hope we figure something out, though. It would be nice to have open communication with him, but it won't be the end of the world if it's old-school Army while he's gone.
Anyways, it is way past my bedtime. I will have to close this here, and come back tomorrow.
Goodnight.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Day One
Last night, my husband left for his second deployment. We met up at his company, had some family time, and said goodbye as Daddy got on the bus to leave.
We had spent the weekend with some quality family time to prepare for his leave. Friday night we ate at our new favorite restaurant (which I might say "favorite restaurant" is quite difficult to come by newly living in Germany. The food here is just not the same, and it's really hard to find something to really like.) Saturday we spent a few hours at our favorite indoor pool, watching movies, and playing games together. Sunday, our last day together, we spent at the Megaplay- only to most fun indoor kids playland in the world (well, better than any one you'd find in America.) We all have fun when we go there, so we knew it would be a great choice. Once we got home, I had my husband help me store all the patio furniture away since it's already getting so cold and it would have to be done anyways before it starts snowing next month. I kept myself busy to keep my mind off what I knew was coming while Denton relaxed with kids watching movies before we had to leave.
Fast-forward to the end of the night, we held hands and said a prayer before Daddy loaded the bus. I had completely kept my composure as I knew I would until the bus finally closed up and drove away and my 2 year old started screaming for Daddy. The hardest part of Daddy leaving is that the kids that young don't really understand why Daddy is leaving and absolutely don't grasp the concept of him going for a long time until the days finally go by. Once he lost it, my tears finally started flowing because it hurts to see your kids hurt. We went straight for the car, headed home, and just sat. The kids put on some Veggie Tales, and I sat next to them just surfing the net trying to clear my head. We finished the night by hopping into bed (thank God we went for the king-sized so I can enjoy sleeping with my boys and sleeping at the same time) and drifted off to dreamland.
I got my last few calls from Denton this morning as he was about to board his flight. No telling when I will hear from him again as where he is going will be barren in every way other than what they bring. Today, I plan to spend the last day of our 4-day weekend as relaxed as possible, doing what I need to do and just spending time with the kids. It is a cold, rainy day in Bavaria, and no place looks better than home.
We had spent the weekend with some quality family time to prepare for his leave. Friday night we ate at our new favorite restaurant (which I might say "favorite restaurant" is quite difficult to come by newly living in Germany. The food here is just not the same, and it's really hard to find something to really like.) Saturday we spent a few hours at our favorite indoor pool, watching movies, and playing games together. Sunday, our last day together, we spent at the Megaplay- only to most fun indoor kids playland in the world (well, better than any one you'd find in America.) We all have fun when we go there, so we knew it would be a great choice. Once we got home, I had my husband help me store all the patio furniture away since it's already getting so cold and it would have to be done anyways before it starts snowing next month. I kept myself busy to keep my mind off what I knew was coming while Denton relaxed with kids watching movies before we had to leave.
Fast-forward to the end of the night, we held hands and said a prayer before Daddy loaded the bus. I had completely kept my composure as I knew I would until the bus finally closed up and drove away and my 2 year old started screaming for Daddy. The hardest part of Daddy leaving is that the kids that young don't really understand why Daddy is leaving and absolutely don't grasp the concept of him going for a long time until the days finally go by. Once he lost it, my tears finally started flowing because it hurts to see your kids hurt. We went straight for the car, headed home, and just sat. The kids put on some Veggie Tales, and I sat next to them just surfing the net trying to clear my head. We finished the night by hopping into bed (thank God we went for the king-sized so I can enjoy sleeping with my boys and sleeping at the same time) and drifted off to dreamland.
I got my last few calls from Denton this morning as he was about to board his flight. No telling when I will hear from him again as where he is going will be barren in every way other than what they bring. Today, I plan to spend the last day of our 4-day weekend as relaxed as possible, doing what I need to do and just spending time with the kids. It is a cold, rainy day in Bavaria, and no place looks better than home.
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